Burnout

Yesterday, I left work early, went to Mt. Charleston with my wife. We rented a cabin and stayed there for the night. In the last few weeks, I thought I was ready to retire. Even though the budget is going to be tight, I decided that it is time. Last night, after the sun left, the stars appeared. It was chilly. We were sitting on the porch with a blanket covering us. I was dozing off. Between wakefulness, I saw the Big Dipper. We were 7,600 ft above sea level. We were much closer to the blinking heavenly bodies. Something clicked. I do not have to retire. The real issue is burnout. I am totally burnout. What I need to do is to address the issue. I have no problem doing what I needed to do at work. What bothered me are my boss and some patients. I have an issue with authority. When someone comes to be in a bossy way, I instantly reject. I had many good conversations with my patients. Of course, there were a few who caused my blood pressure to go up. All in all, after putting everything in perspective, the show will go on.